Sunday 14 August 2011

A Change

At least, yeaterday evening I still wanted to have babies (a very strong desire, I mean) and spend my life in a family with him. However, everything has changed. It's quite a significant change. Now, I don't think a kid is suitable in this relationship anymore. I'll not welcome his/her. It's not because of I don't like/love them. It's because of nothing. And let's talk about this "nothing" in another time.

I do know that one night can ruin a love. Maybe it has happened. For me, there's not only one. There're many ones. It has started and will never end until the love become something of the past. I am now considering my life and the thing so-called love. Time flies and I have nothing in my life. No kid and no career. They are the most important things in my opinion. But I have nothing. Love seems to be FAKE. Or It's truly fake when it belongs to the past. One desires, the other one tries to sacrify and provide. More and more. And more and more. The endless circle of more and more. I extremely want to escape. No more "more and more"...